Turning Points
July 2008
Recognizing that while I was at a turning point that I had been wanting to feel better and all put back together before rejoining the world and my life that I really could never do that and that this was in fact unhealthy for me. Instead I needed to begin venturing out into the world as all messy and human without having to have a clue about much of anything.
August 2008
September 2008
- Being able to succinctly articulate in an e-mail to my parents my feelings about the last several years.
Recognizing how my father’s shame of being dyslexic shaped my own sense of shame about myself and my intelligence, keeping me playing small and safe, without the confidence to really go for it.
Seeing that my father was upset that I was not colluding with him to protect my mother and realizing that part of the challenge for me in confronting the truth of my experience was made harder by the unstated pressure from him to not rock the boat.